Last week was a momentous occasion. I clicked submit on my ERAS application. Sitting in bed with my laptop, re-reading my residency application for the 10th time, I took a deep breath and hit submit. Everything I have done in medical school to ensure I Match in the residency of my choice came down to one click. Ah. Relief.
I can’t believe I actually made it here. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever worked on–becoming a doctor. While at the same time, the most fun I’ve ever had. I feel so lucky that I found my true passion in life.
Going for it wasn’t easy, or convenient, or even rational at the time I decided to enroll in my night organic chemistry class while working full-time. But I never looked back. Of course, I would have never been as gutsy without my boyfriend (now husband) telling me I would be crazy not to do it. When I talked about medicine (and it was pretty much all I talked about to him), my eyes would shine and reveal that fiery glow–he knew I would never be satisfied if I didn’t try (and I may never stop talking about it either). Girls: if you ever find a guy like that–don’t let him go!
Nine years later, here I am. Happy to say, I am just as passionate about medicine (and my guy).
Now that my apps are in and I’m done with my EM sub-I’s, I am currently enjoying a magical time known as 4th year of medical school. In the future, when nostalgia creeps up on me and I reminisce about medical school, I will think only of my 4th year and how wonderful life was. Of how happy, well-rested and fulfilled I was. This year makes all of the memories of stress, the lack of sleep, the endless book chapters, weekly exams, PIMPing sessions, awkward patient interactions, fumbling sutures, idiot mistakes, and otherwise feeling dumb–disappear. All I will remember is the amazing amount of free time I had during my 4th year of medical school.
I intend on taking full advantage of this amazing gift.
My husband and I just celebrated our 4 year wedding anniversary. Throughout our relationship we’ve constantly set goals and dreams of the type of life we want…”when this, then that.” Medicine is notorious for insisting on delayed gratification. But it dawned on us that life is what happens when you are busy making plans. Rather than planning ahead we are making an effort to just enjoy today.
Our priority for this year is simple–one word:travel. Now that I have time on my side we are excited to catch up on some well-deserved vacations. I also realize that residency will be an extraordinarily tough 3-4 years and the time I have this year is precious. As it happens, things couldn’t have been better timed as there are some seriously exciting things happening in our families–including the birth of two nieces!
Here is to continuing my 4th year adventures…next stop: residency interviews!